Sometimes I feel like you just need a mental day... Well, today is that day for me. I am so sad and I have no idea why. My hormones are effing crazy from all the drugs, I suppose. I just have this gut wrenching feeling that this is not going to be our month. I was so optimistic for days and now, I am not. What a terrible feeling.
I am trying my hardest to regain my positive thoughts, but it is not working. I think having so many friends and family members expecting really takes a toll on me. I know, I know.. Think what you want, but like I always say, until you experience what it is like to not get pregnant on your own then please spare me. Do not tell me to "relax" or "God will give a baby when your ready" REALLY!? Is that why America has the highest teen pregnancy rate? Yeah, think again. I doubt they were ready.
Is it so hard to understand that all us infertile people want is what you have? I will take the morning sickness, tiredness, kicks, and uncomfortable sleeping!!! I WANT IT ALL!
I just have a hard time understanding why God has punished us. I feel like I am being punished. I am sure others feel the same. It's such a crappy situation. But in the end I do know that we will have a family one day and hopefully soon, LOL. Sometimes you just need a day to feel crappy and get out of the rut!
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