Some people had warned me of the emotional toll going though fertility treatments was going to bring, but I did not expect all these ups and downs.
I went to my morning monitoring this morning to find out my follies are still not growing! WTF- is the first thing to cross my mind. Can't I just have a normal body and reproductive system?? Ugh, so I am doing another 2 nights of the follistim injections (8 nights total) and they upped my dosage. I have to go back on Sunday at 6am for more blood work and D cam. I am praying that the 3 possible follies are growing. I really don't want to tap into my 2nd month supply of follistim. We paid 24oo dollars out of pocket for just the injections and I pay 50 bucks every time I go to the doctors office. It's disgusting how much this cost, but in the long run it's worth every penny!!
I also went winter coat shopping today with Sal. I think that is why I am so depressed tonight... I have gained so much weight in the last year, it is disgusting. I've gained 42lbs. Ugh!! I honestly think I let the job status (being unemployed) and the infertility issues get to my head. I hate when I do this. I use food as comfort when I am down. I need to get back into shape asap. I hate feeling this way! So I didn't find a coat. They all looked horrible on me. Booohoo! Time to get my ass in gear and at least work out. I am forcing myself to walk at least 20 mins a day starting tomorrow. I will check in to make sure I follow through!
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