So last night was my first fertility injection. I went into the doctor's office at 7am Saturday morning for blood work and an ultrasound. (aka, Dildo cam) Dildo cam and I have become really close nowadays. I get to see him at least 2-3 times a week. He is just awesome. NOT.
Anyhow, my nurse called me around noon and said "tonight's the night.. Start your first injection". At that point I was so excited, but nervous at the same time. As much as you can tell yourself "don't get your hopes up", I already do.
I will be 100% honest... I cried before Sal even stuck the needle in me. When I am at the doctors office, I will suck it up and act fine, but NOT at home. This thing hurts like hell! Well, I am being dramatic. I didn't hurt really.. Just stung for a few minutes after. I think it's just the thought of doing it that gets me. Or maybe that it's Sal's first time injecting a needle into someone?! Probably.
I have to do this for 4 nights at the same time every night. I dread 7pm. I really do... BUT if this is what it is going to take to make Sal a daddy (and me a mommy) then I will do anything. On Wednesday I have to go back at 6am for more blood work and another ultrasound. Why? When on fertility meds, the doctors need to monitor what's going to make sure it's not too much or too little. Everything is designed on a time line. On Wed if my follies look good, then my doctor will schedule our first IUI (insemination) and then I will use the "trigger" injections (HCG) to force ovulation. Fingers crossed!
I see so many naive people these days and it truly breaks my heart. In a way, I feel blessed to being going through this because it helps me understand and respect others that have fertility issues. Some people just don't realize how hurtful some comments about getting/being pregnant are. It's like a stab to the heart, a sucker punch to the stomach, etc. It sucks. Period. These naive people really just don't know any better and while it's not their fault because they have never experienced it themselves, I only hope that one day they will realize.
Getting pregnant is a blessing. ENJOY and LOVE it.
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